mistakes we knew we were making

I think I've needed a huge "welcome back" to myself...

As everyone has, I've made mistakes in my life. But have you ever wondered if/when those mistakes become deliberate? Think about it: we make mistakes and claim we learn from them, then make the same, or relatively close to the same, mistake again. Do we realize this? Maybe we do subconsciously and don't want to admit it to ourselves; thinking we'll recognize it the next time and stop ourselves from letting it happen. Maybe we want it to happen..? Although I don't know who would yearn to feel the way I do after realizing I've made a mistake. Is any of this making sense? Maybe not. I just know that I can't keep living my life without my voice being the one that leads it. I want to be heard and listened to and understood. As Socrates' says, "an unexamined life is not worth living" it's a waste; you need to reach, you need to be a part of your own life: every person should be the lead role in their own life.

Now, I'm not saying other people are not important, but you have to remember that you are the most important. And I'm not saying to be selfish, just remember who you are, and don't let go of that. Completely opposite to that: the people in your life that influence you, help you, and are always there for you are extremely important. And in turn it is always important to help a person you love. In time of need and not. Always. I friend is a friend.

Lately, I've been forgetting who I am, and I need that back. It's a feeling that is completely indescribable when you feel constrained; like your wings have been clipped.  

I am taking back the reigns in my life and feeling great about it. It's so important to be you.

As I have mentioned before, the relationships in your life are crucial. 

I could attempt to wrap this up in a pretty bow for you but not a lot happens that easily.

The ugly truth is that people will come and go in your life and although difficult and may take some time, you have to determine who is good for you; who will benefit your life as you can do for them. While it may be difficult to understand, it is necessary to continue to be happy. Happiness is the final goal. There are things you do and steps you take that lead to other steps that make you happy, but you being happy is not a step you take for something else. Happiness. Your best friend, forever.