Love, right?

Meet Guilia. She's from Italy; came here as a foreign exchange student during my senior year of high school. We became really good friends and she left sooner than expected. We still keep in touch and I'm hopefully going to visit her this summer in Italy. I took this photo for an assignment in photography senior year. It was so fun; she held nothing back. We used to have a great time together and I'm so excited I may see her!

Going back to the acquaintances thing... because i just keep thinking about how important it is. I can't really explain it. I just really think people need to be more open and caring and understanding. I really think we don't have enough love. And that's the most important thing. LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED. Right? I think I do believe that.. I mean I've always wondered who I'm going to end up with or what job I'm going to have and where I'm going to live when i grow up and start a life. I just think the most important thing in that is love. If I find the someone who loves me and knows me and I love and am soulfully happy with, I'll be fine. My job won't entirely matter, and the money won't be most crucial. I just think love is what will make or break you. 

Have it, and know it. 'Cuz if you don't, you're gonna have some problems.. :)

the love blues

Alright so it's Valentine's Day and you're probably thinking one of two things.. 1. F#@% this stupid holiday, I have no one to spend it with. OR 2. I'm so happy I have my baby to spend today with.

But, really.. it's a pointless holiday. Women think it's only about chocolate and jewelry and flowers. Out of those I'll take the flowers, maybe. It's become such a day of marketing and advertisement because men think all their girls want are things to show off to their friends.

I think we miss the point completely.. It's not about what you can buy your significant other. It's just a day to remember to appreciate that you have them. I guess I'm just not one for chocolate and candy hearts. I love getting flowers but that's just because they smell great and I love the way they look in the house. I really just think the biggest thing is to delve into your relationship. I mean, you should be thankful everyday. But all those days you don't get to see each other, they don't matter on Valentine's Day. It's just about being with the someone you happened to be lucky enough to share mutual interest with in this never-ending sea of people in the world.

I think we try too hard in general. I think we don't appreciate the things we have as much as we should. And that's not a god way to live. I don't want to be mad about the bad things that have happened in my life when I can relive all the good things in my mind.

In any case: I think everyone should have a good day today. It's not all about one significant other when we have to many people in our lives that love and care for us. 

Influences

Have you ever met someone and you immediately know they will change your life forever? 

I have met so many people in my life. And it's easy to see who will mean a lot. You have to notice the acquaintances you make. Whether its someone you hit it off with right away, or someone you had to grow to know, it doesn't matter. I think we take advantage of the people we meet. We no longer take the time to get to know people anymore. I think we've become selfish. We don't want to take the time make people more than acquaintances because we don't want to feel obliged to be there for someone, or send a birthday card, or go out to dinner.. It's so important to have 'face time'; to interact with people.

This is it.

So, my mom's 50th birthday was recently. It made me think: that could potentially be the middle of her life. I mean, chances are she's already half way through the way our family goes, but still... it makes you think. I realize how young I am, and that I still have so much of my life to live. Thinking about my future makes me slightly nervous. There are so many things I want to do, and who knows if ill ever achieve them. It just makes me wonder: when do things begin to count? We always say, "I want to do this, I want to do that.. etc." I just wonder when we start to consider the things we've previously done as part of our lives? I look back on some of the things I've done in my life and I think, "Wow, that was amazing. I can't believe I did that, it feels like another lifetime!" Is it when we become adults, or when we begin to achieve the things we always had on our 'to-do in life' list? I just don't want to wake up one morning and realize I've spent my entire life waiting for it to begin. What if this is it? This is where the beginning starts and we have to embrace everything from here on out. I want to do so many things and although I do plan on doing then at some point, I want to make sure I don't waste my time in between now and then. I don't want to disregard the pre-years as if I'm just spending them waiting. I don't want to wait. What is there to wait for!? I want a family at some point; a loving husband and some little munchkins running around. I might dream of that until it happens but I'm not going to ignore any man that may not be suitable for that role in my life. I want experience things. I want to look back and know that I enjoyed my years of sorrow as well as joy.

I feel like I have done so much yet nothing all together. I want to do something with my life, I want to know by the time that I'm on my death bed that I made a difference in someone's life. 

Have you?

what matters

 

Right now I'm in between classes, sitting here observing and listening to music. 

So my job for the past 6 years has been for Parks and Recreation, working with kids as a leader during the summer playground program. I like kids a lot, and I also teach gymnastics through P&R which I enjoy. So for a long time I have known that nursing is what i want to do with my life, but I was having such a difficult time deciding what field to go into. The other day I was at work; enjoying the overall splendor of little kids running around playing during the Parent-tot class and I couldn't stop smiling. And right at that moment, it hit me like 50 light bulbs: I want to work with kids.. so maybe I'll work in pediatrics and double major in early childhood developmental psychology. I'd like to work in the cancer ward for a children's hospital. I know it will be tough but I realized that that doesn't really matter...

What matters is that I go home from work everyday knowing that I did everything I could to make that child's time less painful and happier while they were still here.

new beginnings

-California.

So, this is the beginning, basically I have needed a place to just write so what better way...

A little info: I'm a photographer* and black and whites are my favorite (hence the life in black and white, also because this will just be layman's terms: life). This name basically means stripped; starting from the beginning and using your inner child's imagination to color the pictures.. Jared likes crayolas <3

Another reason I am beginning a blog is because I want to begin a new chapter in my life.. I feel like I am straying from God, and the person I once was, and I want not necessarily to be that same person again (we are all constantly changing) but I want to fully find Him again.

Here goes nothing :)

Enjoy.

*wanna see more? visit me at http://www.flickr.com/photos/kayhornphotography/