Saturday, November 30, 2013

The Weight of the World

“A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face she inquired, “How heavy is this glass of water?” The answers called out ranged from 8oz to 20 oz. She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If i hold it for a minute, its not a problem. If i hold it for an hour, i’ll have an ache in my arm. If i hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn’t change, but the longer i hold it, the heavier it becomes.” She continued, “The stress and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them for a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed - incapable of doing anything.” Always remember to put the glass down.”


Holy shit. The utter truth of this. 

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

Nursing School

Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing. Why I put myself through so much hell, no sleep no social life no free time. It's easy to forget the light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to nursing school. It's like a dark black hole that sucks you in and you're trying not to drown.
It's been the worst semester of my life. My hardest classes, I still hold a position in the sorority, I started dating someone, I can't even remember the last time I went to a party or social event. At least my cats are snuggly, amiright? I've also been sick a lot. So that really doesn't help. 

With all that said, I did have my pediatrics clinical this semester. It was wonderful. Such an affirmation of what I want to do with my nursing career. 
I had a job interview today at Children's Hospital of Michigan for a student nurse extern position. Basically I would be shadowing and working under a preceptor. It was like finding that light. Now that I have seen it I don't want to forget it or let it go. 
I have to finish this last year as my best ever because I owe it to myself. I've worked way too hard to let myself fall behind or fail. I am so exhausted but I need to remind myself of the end reward.

Now I will go write my care plan. Peace.