..I just feel like a lot of shit is fucked up right now, about a lot. Ive been having weird dreams lately. The other night my house was burning, but only under the floorboards, and I could see it, it just flamed, but didnt spread. And 911 was trying to talk to me about my grades..wtf? Ive been watching The Big Lebowski lately (therefore my mind has been on white russians), and last night I dreamt I took the end of a milk jug and just poured in vodka and kahlua, mixed it, and just walked around drinking out of the milk jug: interesting. That fire one seriously messed with my sleep though..I just laughed at myself when I realized Id been dreaming about being a glorified version of The Dude.
Wouldn't that be sweet though, to be a taoist/buddhist/partial nihilist. Yeah, if we could afford that. Its always "get a career with JOB SECURITY" "be a lawyer, be a nurse" "where will that class get you?" "you're taking philosophy, why, again?" Well: Fuck. That. Next semester I have Rel 300: archeology of Israel, Women in Gender Studies, and Phl 150: World Traditions. Im really looking forward to it, all together. The Rel 300 class will give me the opportunity to go to Israel next summer for 3 weeks and do an archeological dig, and world traditions is self explanatory, an overview of religions and traditions. The worst thing to me is that the Atheists know more about religion than anyone, generally speaking for the masses. How can you speak passionately about your religion and explain the differences when you know nothing of another religion. The prof is the same one I have now for philosophy, he's pretty awesome, I cant lie. The class is full but he invited me to come anyway.
Why is it never about passion anymore. We've all become fucking Zombies. We obey without questioning and using the very brains our creator gave us! We're zombies and we're going to breed zombies: its pathetic! I have a passion for knowledge. I dont give a fuck about a lot of things, but I do care about bettering my brain, using my knowledge, and expanding my intellect. When did we stop trying? When did we say that mediocre is acceptable, let alone desired!
It's like we're enthusiastic about going nowhere. Someone else will take care of that, right? No they fucking wont, so do it! Get off your ass and do something with your mind, your good will, and your reason. For as Kant says, that is your personhood. USE IT, dammit.
